For me my physical pain or discomfort kills me mentally and my intelligence and spirit both takes a nose dive. Today was worst with stomach churning since morning. I thought of blanketing myself with work and attended the 9.30 call followed by a call at 4.30 then 6pm. Of course the home remedies were on unfortunately nothing worked.
And as I was grinding my teeth and doing things I remembered the numbness which we would create in work. Not having the ability to say NO, or prioritize our health. We would pop a tablet - strips of Saridon / Disprin / Dolo without thinking much. And the sheer numbness and the dopamine of finishing a chat or chatting with workers drove us through the day.
Last 2 years I stopped doing it unless it’s unbearable. But sometimes when it happens too often I feel my ability to bear pain has gone down and one of the often debate which comes in my mind - let me just a pop a medicine and enjoy the present. In the long run we are all dead anyway.
I don’t seem to be like those influencers whose life changes miraculously after they turn veg or start exercising or find a guru 😂😁
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